tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-963102450532352724.post7583939864555815178..comments2012-10-17T08:38:27.877-05:00Comments on A Lefty's View of Life: LLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15402954620314497115noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-963102450532352724.post-50614194291909641462012-10-17T08:38:27.877-05:002012-10-17T08:38:27.877-05:00I love reading your posts... yes, I think you can ...I love reading your posts... yes, I think you can but will it last? only if that person will treat you with respect & honor your forgiveness.. as human nature sees us we are of sinful nature... we retreat back to our old habits... that is why we have to ask for God's help... not trying to go all religious on ya, don't want to go in that direction of convo... but before I got cancer; my father had cancer & is in remission, before remission he thought he was going to die, we mend fences that were a painful long lifetime of hurt and disappointment but we mend fences... then when he got well and in remission he hurt me again - that bastard I thought... I gave in to your request, forgave you & you hurt me again... I made an ugly person of myself telling others of how he truly was and he was an ass... you would need to know the back drop of my childhood (too long) to understand & where I am going with this is... I ridiculed him after his remission (which is low) because he went back to being his old person... before our mending of fences.. but then his cancer returned.. and I think his eyes opened... I've kept a relationship with him & try to keep a peaceful one even if I get hurt again but I harbored those ill & anger driven feeling deep inside me... now look at me... I had cancer... I felt the wrath of death throughout chemo... I was close to death with my anemia .. I wanted to make all my wrongs right with God first & foremost & yes, I know what you mean about being the one eating crow or being the one to forgive... it's not an easy thing at all... I feel like the better I feel the more I screw up ... forgetting what it was like near death... but it is about peaks & valley's... highs & lows... <br /><br />Bottom line... if you allow yourself to forgive are you afraid of feeling weak in the situation? if so find a way to do the forgiving feeling like the stronger person... you will release a heavy load & burden you put on yourself... <br /> <br />I may be way off bases with this but I am seeing it through the gaps so I may have what you are talking about all wrong in my head, I just explained my way of relating to what "I got out of your blog" ... <br /><br />If nothing else thanks for sharing... I have always and still do appreciate your friendship!<br /><br />Love you,<br />Shelly<br /> sms0672https://www.blogger.com/profile/05602533802138821580noreply@blogger.com